Journal of Faith: Work out your own salvation with fear and trembling Philippians 2:12

So another one of my life views was shattered recently, and my whole family is in a daze from this one.  Fortunately for me the Holy Spirit speaks to me and reminds we of what I have studied and learned.  I am speaking joy into the life of everyone that I know who knows Jesus and to everyone I know who doesn't I am praying that they desire the joy that can only come from a relationship with Jesus Christ.  My life seems to be getting more and more shaky, but when I am weak God shows his strength and power and love on my behalf.  Because I have studied to show myself approved I can say that this is a test and I am going to pass by the grace of God.  My paradigm has shifted about three times in two days so I am still a little dizzy from the whirlwind, but here is the bottom line.  I am excited about the fact that God knows that my family can handle this.  He has trusted us with this trial and that is pretty amazing because he doesn't put on us more than w...

Not too many people understand the way I approach my life or my dependence on God for my understanding of who I am.  People don't even try to know me anymore.  I have opened my heart to people many times and have been left hanging. All I wanted was connectedness and friendship.  I always felt like it was because they thought I wasn't good enough for them, but the Lord gave me a revelation that it was the Jesus in me that they were rejecting.  It has made me feel a lot better about myself.  The Lord has been telling me this for year, but since I was too dense to appreciate it in words, The Bible or spoken words of encouragement from others, God sent me a picture.  First I got a picture from my perspective people approaching me with my arms open and then changing their minds, turning up their noses and looking down on me.  In this picture I was all shriveled up and needy and they were high and mighty.  Then God gave me a reset, and showed the pictur...