It's Hard to Believe He Loves Me
It is my daily struggle to believe the most basic of all Christian principles; it is hard to believe that God loves me. Some days are better than others, but every day is a struggle. It is easy to deductively analyze my life and say, "Yeah, it doesn't add up. It can't possibly be right." It may be easy for other people to look at me and say, "you're a wonderful woman of God. He's proud of you." They don't see everything. They don't know what God and I know about me. They don't know every time I thought something mean or hateful. They don't know every deceptive things I've done. They don't know every time I didn't speak up for what was right for my own personal gain. They don't know my tendencies or my secret sins. When I look at the pile up from the past twenty something years, it is devastating to me. It's easy to chalk it all up and conclude that I am unlovable. I am guessing that I am not the only...