It looks like everything is falling apart, BUT...

I am attempting to approach the many hardships in my life with more purposeful actions and responses.  The Lord has blessed me with a decent job and a loving family, but one seems to strain the other constantly.  I know that the Lord gives a time for everything, and my time is running out for me to keep things the way that they are.  Emergencies seem to be my new normal, and I feel the hand of life pushing me into a different direction.  The Lord has something else for me to see, but the place where I seem to be going is strangely familiar.  It is a place of dependence on him and service to loved ones.  For a while I thought I was going to be moving backwards which made me feel a little sad and disappointed, but who am I to be disappointed by the genius working of my Lord and savior.  It turns out that it is a move forward because I can see God winding me through a path to where he really intends for me to be.  I believe that God is going to send me back to school and into ministry service.  I feel the spirit says "don't worry about what you are giving up.  I have a wonderful surprise for you ahead, and you won't be sorry. Come on and follow me." I won't turn back and I won't feel remorse for the things that soon will be the past.  I thank God for this day and for the days ahead.  I am grateful for what was, what is, and what is yet to come.  I am excited to see how clever my father God is.  He is making a masterpiece out of my life, but it requires my obedience.  I will obey and I will honor my family with my time and support.  I will seek the Lord's face and his will for me. I have decided to finally give up my plans and receive his.  Scriptures for thought:  Mathew 10:38-39  "And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me.  He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it."  Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."  Galatians 6:9-10 "And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith."

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