I have been holding my breath for a year!

Have you ever been so afraid of making the wrong move that you didn't move at all? It doesn't ensure that anything will be alright and sometimes it gets in the way of good things to come. Life moves on whether we want it to or not. It is like the ocean, you either exert force to go where you want to or you are forced to go with the movement of the water. The feeling of being washed away by life is not a good one. For the past year I feel like I have been holding my breath while life washed over me. I got stuck because I found myself living a life that I hadn't expected to live and had not prepared for. I was single, I was a mom, and I was not a college graduate! In an effort to push myself forward I took classes this summer. Now I need a next step. I thought about forgoing college and just finding a job, but I did three quarters of my degree already. If I worked outside of home and went to school I wouldn't see my son, and I would be placing more pressure on my family to take care of my son while I was gone. I want to be responsible, and I don't want to make a wrong decision. Time is not on my side because, as with water, it runs on with or without my permission. I think I will write out a schedule for myself and see how much time I would actually have. Information improves my chances of making a good decision. A year of holding my breath is enough. I am going to breath again now, and I will start my life over again one step at a time.