So that's what it looks like!

Grace under fire is not an easy thing, but I decided to trust God and not worry about my issues with my son's father. When he wanted a paternity test and I cooperated. When he called I allowed him to come over and see the baby. When he asked me questions I was honest with him even to the point of telling him uncomfortable but necessary things. I just did what I thought would be pleasing to the Lord and let what was going to happen, happen. The most recent event was a court order to determine child support. I knew that he was going to want to talk about custody, and that was hard for me. I decided to trust God because I knew that he loved my son and would work everything out for his good. Sure enough after the paperwork was filled out for the child support he asked about visitation. I was already relieved because he didn't say custody. We were then directed to another office in the building in which the mediator explained that for him to file for a hearing to determine visitation he would have to pay an extra $105! This was just to get the paperwork started, and if we couldn't determine visitation with a mediator than it would go to court where there would be more costs. He was highly disappointed, and I was somewhat relieved. I allow him to come see the baby when he calls, so why would he pay to get less visitation time than he has the potential of getting now? God is funny like that some times. I feel like I am conceding, and God shows me that he hasn't conceded at all. I was almost laughing as we left the office. Even if he does file, my life will be just fine because it is in God's hands. God had given me and my son the Victory. This was a reminder that if I put my trust in the God who never lies and never leaves me, I will never be disappointed. Thank you Lord for your grace.

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