Can You Really Trust a Babysitter!

I have spent the last year with my son trying to establish a solid relationship with him and making sure that he feels secure. Now that I am looking for a job I have people suggesting babysitters all over the place. It is like I am wearing a stamp that says babysitter needed. I live with my mother, but I don't want to put any more of a burden on her. She loves us both, but it would be great for her to have some time to herself. I already feel terrible for encroaching upon what is suppose to be the beginning of her second wind. I have two younger brothers, but one of them is an adult so it is like she has one child or at least it would have been if I hadn't gotten pregnant and come back home. Needless to say she has been jipped and she needs a break! I have an aunt who does home daycare, but she lives a ways away. I also don't want someone trying to take my son's loyalty or asserting themselves where they shouldn't. I have trust issues so the idea of me putting my son with a babysitter is horrifying. It is bad enough the things that kids learn when they go to school that they aren't suppose to learn. My brother knows songs he shouldn't be singing and makes jokes that we wouldn't dare say in our house. It would be foolish of me to think that the same sort of thing won't happen in daycare. I know that eventually I have to let my son go and pray for the best, but why should I expose my son to unhealthy ideas when he is so impressionable? I guess I am just picky, but why shouldn't I be, after all he is my baby and I am responsible for giving him my best. I suppose I shouldn't worry so much until I have to. For now I will just teach my son as much good as I can and pray like a mother should...constantly.

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