I've Nursed My Way Out of My Clothes

I am now the result of reaping too many of the benefits of nursing. Before I got pregnant I was very happy with my weight. I was a solid, but my no means fat. I was pretty much muscle with just enough cushion to say "hey I am a woman and proud of it". I was pretty active during my pregnancy, but still managed to gain about 35 lbs. It actually didn't look bad on me, but as soon as I had the baby I knew that somehow the weight would have to go. Fortunately for me I opted to nurse. One of the great advantages of nursing is that your weight comes down faster. I lost the weight in no time at all but failed to realize that since I was still nursing my weight was still coming down. I am now smaller than I was before I had the baby, and none of my clothes fit right. I know that most women wouldn't complain about getting thin, but I hate it. I liked not being able to be knocked over by rude people who disrespected personal space, and I don't like the prospect of having to buy all new clothes. My mom says that it is just lean muscle, but I don't know. I hope that when I stop nursing I go back to my normal size. Even my son's father called me skinny, and since my womanly parts have all but disappeared I feel like less of a woman. I want my body back, and I am taking it back as soon as possible. I am over nursing!

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