God is the only one who is enough

This is a continuation of the thought from my previous blog because I just feel in my spirit that God is really revealing this to me.  It may be old news reworded, but here goes.  I know that some gentlemen or ladies may take this as an insult, but the truth is that God is the only one in our lives that is both necessary and sufficient.  Those are just science terms to say that God is the only one who is enough to fulfill all that we need in our lives. No husband will ever be enough, no wife will ever be sufficient, no child will be enough, no career will be sufficient, nothing is enough without God filling in all the empty space that these people and things can't.  I heard someone say once that because God created us to be in relationship with him that he placed a desire in us that only he can fulfill.  I am finding that to be so true right now for me.  I am not some sob story girl with a bad family history or anything like that.  I grew up in the church, was loved by the church people, was loved by my family, was loved by my teachers, was loved by my community, and was loving my life.  Mom was a rock and a great source of wisdom, and still is, and Dad was always telling me how much he loved me, and still does, and taking me out to play.   I got good grades while doing sports and church stuff, so you would think that I was happy and fulfilled.  WRONG! I still felt unloved even though people were constantly, and honestly, telling and showing me that they loved me.  A youth pastor or someone like that would come around a lot of times and tell me how much God loved me and I believed them, but I didn't feel it. I used to cry into my pillow quietly at night sometimes, and still do, and ask God why I felt so alone.  I knew God loved me and I knew that my family and church family really did love me, but what I wanted to feel was even deeper than all of that.  I tried the boyfriend thing when a young brave, or stupid, soul decided to test me out to see if it could work.  I set us both up for failure.  I wanted to feel the love so badly that I went against what God told me and gave my body to someone who was not my husband, and guess what?  I still wasn't fulfilled.  I wanted him to understand me better, and I tried to change him into a man I thought he should be if he were to love me right and love God.  It was really backwards all the way around.  I wanted to fill a whole that everyone else seemed to be filling with relationships, but it didn't work.  I wasn't happy when we were together and I couldn't stand to be without him.  This is not a great place to be at all.  To this day I still love him just as much and I still want him just as much, but I refuse to place him in a position of failure.  When you try to put a person where God belongs that is exactly what you are doing, setting them up for failure.  No person completes any other person.  God completes us all.  He places us together because two can work better than one.  A man and a woman can do great things if they combine their gifts for the work of God's kingdom, but that doesn't mean asking them to do for you what God should be doing.  God will complete the work he began in us and God is the author and finisher of our faith.  Any completing that needs to be done God will and has done it through Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghost.  I am completely dependent on God to fill the void in me because he is really all that I need and no one else can be or should be.  All glory and honor to God my father, my advocate, my savior, my everything.