It makes me sad when people don't want to know HIS perfect love

I had an encounter with a strange woman today on my own email!  She was trying to instant message me for some inappropriate club.  I was in shock at first that this was happening through my very own email, but after that I decided that maybe she needed to hear the gospel.  I introduced the idea of Jesus into the conversation and quickly found out that she prefered to receive the satisfaction of being on a camera.  I tried to be real with her and offer an alternative to what she was doing, but she didn't want to hear a word of it.  I felt like this woman needed to feel the love of Jesus so badly that it broke my heart a bit that she didn't accept it.  I am to the point in my life now that I am realizing if people truly experience the love of God they won't accept the artificial man made commercial love that they have been accepting and then expecting to operate as the agape that only God can give.  I am no exception to this happening or I wouldn't be a single mother today.  I crave love and affection probably as much or more than some other women, and I just really want to love people and be loved back.  I am finding though that my need is so deep that no person would be able to effectively supply that need that I have, and I have come to accept that it is a need for me and not just a want.  So now I am despirately asking God to fulfill that need for me because he is the only one who can, and he is the only one that can empower me to love other people as he wants me to.  I will not give up on sharing the gospel with especially the broken women of the world.  If God can put us back together than we wouldn't need other people's affection, approval, and acceptance so much.  When God accepts you who is anyone else to deny how important and special you are.  I am not afraid to let God love me any more. 

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