It's Hard to Fly When You've Been Walking for So Long!

I love to walk.  I will walk just about anywhere, and in that way I used to feel like nothing could stop me. I never imagined that my life would take me anywhere that my feet couldn't go.  As I look at my future walking is no longer an option.  If I am to move forward I will have to fly.  The apprehension that I have for changing how I carry on is due to the fact that in order to fly I must first jump off of everything that I am familiar with.  For a woman who values security this is not normal or in any way appealing.  Why is it so easy to trust myself and so difficult to trust God?  I have failed myself more times than I care to remember, but God has never failed me. Lord help my unbelief!  In spite of my insecurities I am now choosing to embrace my wings and try this flying thing again.  I have done it before, but I forgot how to fly after I fell really hard once.  This time I am taking another person in tote with me, but if God can carry one than he can carry two.  Lord please let your wind hold us up as I go beyond myself into who you are.  I know now how this happened.  I asked the Lord to tell to come and I would. Just as Thomas did when he saw Jesus walking on water, and now the Lord has responded by telling me to come.  Now I have the task of not looking down or away from the Lord.  Everything looks crazy and I know some people think I have gone off the deep end.  They would be right, but I have no intent on falling to my demise.  I am going to fly.  After a long time at trying to figure out how to fly I believe the understanding has finally come to me.  Flying is putting yourself all the way out of comfort in order to make room for God to lift you up.  I can see a picture of myself arms and legs spread out to catch the wind of God under me.  I guess it would be almost like hang gliding. 

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  1. AnonymousJune 8, 2011 at 11:53 PM

    As you know by now I'm all about the details. How are you going to fly specifically? What changes are you making?

    Dominique

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