I won't let anyone drive me crazy

I am having one of those moments where everthing seems to be moving really fast and it's making my heard hurt. I am tired of thinking and tired of trying to slow things down.  This sort of thing is probably normal among guardians and parents of preschool aged children. When you are tired they want to play when you are ready to help them they want to do it on their own.  When you want them to try to do something for themselves they want you to do it for them and when you want to give them attention they want you to leave them alone. I sometimes look at the ages of 2-4 almost like the teen years.  Do they always think that they're right?  I appeal to my son with calm rationale and biblical principles until I am sure that he understands exactly what I want and exactly where I stand on his behaviors.  It is as if he says "I understand mom, but my way is right so I am going to do exactly as I intended." I have invested so much into teaching my child principles that he needs to survive, and I feel like I have repeated myself and examined myself, and exhausted myself to the point of no return.  In these dishoveled moments when my last nerve has taken it's leave the only thing that I have left is my Bible.  God said that he has not given us the spirit of fear but of power, love, and a sound mind.  It is by the power of God that I refuse to lose my mind.  As a parent sometimes horrible things come to my mind about what my child might do or become, but God told me that fear is not from him and that I am to stand in power, in love, and with my mind in tact.  When I remember correctly God placed this child here, and I am a caretaker. There is no way that I could love my son more than God who created him.  I am only to do my job and teach him about Jesus and his principles for living in word and deed. Sometimes when I get so frustrated I pray for God to step in and take over for me.  He always does.  It is a wonderful thing to know that even as a single parent I am not alone in this.  I know many married women who feel alone.  They have husbands, but just because a man is "present" does not make him a willing and able father.  Some women single or married are doing it seemingly alone and some have all but lost their minds. Some men are doing it too.  I thank God for reminding me that whether we see him or not God is still all of our children's creators, and he has the ability to step in and help us where we are missing the mark.  As I look at my writing I realize that, like missing the mark in anything else, missing the mark in parenting is sin.  We are stewards of these children and when we mess up it is sin. Thank Jesus that his blood is also able to wipe out every bad decision that I have made as a parent. As a parent not only do I need to give grace, but I need to receive it.  Lord please give me the type of grace that I can hold on to and the type that I can give away.  You know I need it.