What am I thinking!?

I end up asking myself "what am I thinking?" every time I get ready to take a major faith step. I am really trying to be better this year, and as I examine myself for my annual spiritual checkup I found some things that I didn't want.  I felt the Lord convicting me about holding on to beliefs that weren't from him as higher truth than what I have learned while walking this faith journey.  Sometimes ideas and opinions can be so ingrained in me that I hold on to them like they were my saving grace.  When I try to break from those ideas I get a powerful sensation and painful thoughts that say "you can't do that" or "it's not going to work" or "you don't deserve that" or "you won't have another chance".  Those are horrible dibilitating thoughts that prey on my fears. Every now and then we all fall prey to one of these thoughts and in that moment we bow ourselves down to the voice that tells us there is no better way and we return to an activity or idea that passifies the terror running through us.  The feeling hits us so strong sometimes that we forget that God has not given us the spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind. When I set my mind on things that are eternal, I am then prepared to make the questions that were meant to stop me testimonies of who God is to me. What am I thinking?   I am thinking that I have power because of my relationship with God.  God is greater than anything I could possibly face in this life; God is always prepared; and God is always with me.  I am thinking that the Lord is my light and my salvation whom shall of fear?  The Lord is the strength of my life. Of whom shall I be afraid?  I am thinking  that I am blessed and highly favored of the Lord.  I am thinking that the Lord planned great works for me to do. I am thinking that I choose to believe God's word rather than fear and doubt. After all, every move that we make or don't make is an act based on a belief.  Everyone has faith in something or someone.  I choose to place my faith in the Lord.  

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