Turning the Corner; Finding my Freedom

So here is the thought for the day that is helping me to turn the corner on my sadness about my life.  Just as the arch of the covenant in the old testiment God spared no expense in his creation of each of us. He specifically gave me every skill and gift that I posess, and he made me with affinities toward certain things.  He did not make a mistake when he made me love all types of music; he did not make a mistake when he made me with thick hair and wide open eyes; he did not make a mistake when he made me athletic and curious; he did not make a mistake when he made me outspoken and academically intrigued.  All of who I am God meant for me to be, and every issue that I have with myself is something that can be resolved by drawing in closer to the Lord and loving myself better.  The better I see God in my life and the more I realize that God wants me to be ME, the better I will be able to discern my purpose and live victoriously in that.  God doesn't want me to stop being me but to use the identity that God has given me to be a witness of God in this world.  So who am I?   I am a violin playing, constantly praying, justice seeking, people loving, athleticly inclined, academically hungry, singing, dancing, writing, passionate, black american, christian, single, reading, love seeking, tender hearted, discriptive talking, artistic, super serious minded, forgiveness learning, flat footed, health consious, well conscious, heavy handed, fire loving, care taking, crying, mess of a mother.  I think I can live with that, and I am not ready to give up on any of who God made me to be.  There are parts of me that didn't come from God and I say to those other parts of me, you've got to die.  To the gifts and qualities that do come from God I say, all glory to God.  When it all shakes out who I am is God's daughter in whom he is well pleased.  Suck on that world.  I am free to be ME!!!!! So how am i suppose to make that work?  The Bible tells me that my gifts will make room for me.  I give myself, my abilities and talents, away to the world for the love of God and he makes space for me to thrive in his will. This is the truth and it makes me free!!!!!!!  I am determined to love being me.  Halleluiah!


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