What I Really Want

I am starting to understand what my great-grandmother meant when she said I want to go home.  She was tired of being in this world, and quite honestly so am I.  To be here has many blessing, but the greatest blessing is to be with the Lord.  The only reason that I am still in this world is because of my purpose.  If we only existed to know God then when we got saved we would immediately be taken to heaven.  Since I am still here there has to be more to my life then simply getting saved.  My only way out of here now is to fulfill my purpose, and so I am tunneling my vision this year to really dig into my purpose.  The most basic of purposes for any Christian is to tell others about God and show them God's love.  We all might do it in a different way, but if you are wondering what you're purpose is it's basically to introduce Jesus into people's contemplation.  God reveals to us the details of our mission as our relationship with him grows and progresses. I tend to over-complicate things, but I am learning that God hides our answers mostly in plain sight. As we gain vision we will probably realize that the answers to many of our questions were right in front of us.  When it comes to purpose I am beginning to see that we should start with what we do well, our natural tendencies.  I believe that the Lord has provided us the pieces that we need to get the work done, but we must plug in to HIM as our source in order to give eternal meaning to our talents and gifts.  When I am dead I won't care who remembers my name only how many of those people I get to see again in heaven.  I won't care about who talked about me for being different; I will care about whether or not I was a good steward of the work that God gave me to do. I have been asking myself what I want for my life, and my answer is that I want to finish my job on this earth and equip my son for his job on this earth.  I want to go home knowing that I finished my part.  Heaven is waiting on me.  Everything else is going to weighed by this, my finances, my other relationships, my career, my vocation.  Anything that moves me forward in my purpose will stay or be added, and everything that distracts me from my purpose must be removed.  I feel like I have direction now and that is one thing I can't afford to be without.  This isn't a new years resolution, it's a revelation.