I'm Feeling "New"/My Daddy and Me

I was always one of those children that was taught to try new things, and I am so grateful for that. It grows me to explore my world. Sometimes I look up at myself and realize that I am new.  It feels like a sudden happening, and there is a little bit of grief in that for me because I love that girl that's gone.  Once I have grieved the loss, I feel grateful because there are certain places in my journey that require me to change in order to move forward.  I have to become new. Thank God for new days, seasons, and mercies.   One great thing about newness is that it can include the old with it. I believe in building on what is good.

Today is my father's birthday, and I bless God that he is still here. At one point I thought we had lost him, and in a way I was right. My dad was missing for almost a week, and when he came back he was a different person. I had to get to know this new daddy, and for the longest time I resented it. It took me two years to reach out my arms to hug him. It wasn't because I didn't love him, but I felt like I was hugging a body snatcher, a suit of a man a used to know. I was just waiting for him to ask for sugar water to confirm my suspicions that this was not my father (this is a Men in Black reference. You need to see the movie to understand). I am past that now, but it took me realizing that newness and change are constantly happening. I had to grow up and see my father in a more vulnerable way.   These last few years were rough, but I thank God that I have a chance to get to know the new dad.  I find myself looking for the things that bonded my dad and I together in the new dad.  I get excited when I see glimpses of the old dad.  I thank God now that while I see glimpses of the old dad he is not that man anymore.  I am growing to love the new dad, and I know that one day when it is time for one of us to change again we will be able to explore our new chapter together.  It's the blessing of being family.  We're in this together forever.  Happy Birthday Dad!!! I Still Love You

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