Seeking First /My Reflection

The last couple days have been one disappointment after another.  It seemed like everywhere I went the answer was "no".  School was a no, relationship situations were a no, shopping was no, and my attitude was starting to become a no-no!  I just layed in my floor feeling sorry for myself after ministering at the church (yes I still did my ministry with all that was within me and the Lord showed out even in my weak state).  I received some great encouragement in song, and I got up and started to rethink everything.  I wondered what was I doing differently to get such negative responses in my life.  Well this morning I got my answers.  First off I was stinging on my God time, and therefore ALL of my relationships began to suffer. The Lord stopped me to show me the spiritual side of my physical situations by causing me to go into work an hour early! (I wasn't upset because I know it was God's doing and it was marvelous in my eyes) Yes I went to work today on Labor Day.  As I was praying in my car God asked me to look at all of the tugging that was happening in my family and in my other relationships.  He then told me "They are a reflection of me."  It is at that point that I realized I hadn't stopped to give God exclusive time in days!  Yes I talk with God constantly throughout my days, but chatter is different than relationship building conversation. God was telling me that I forgot to seek him therefore all those things that would have been added unto me were lacking.  Seeking first is both necessary and sufficient.  God knows what we need and he will supply if we take the time to talk with him and not just to him.  communication is critically important  to the quality of any relationship, and when we don't stop to hear God he uses people and situations to get out attention.  Every single one of my relationships was strained to alert me to the fact that no one especially God was getting quality time with me. God used my relationships and circumstances to show me my reflection because I wouldn't spend time consciously looking in the spiritual mirror with God and receiving feedback on how I was representing him.  I was exhausted, annoyed, and beat down when I opened up my mouth to the Lord this morning.  Doing things on your own can end you up that way pretty fast. I thank God for pushing me to spend some time listening for his voice and his correction.  Can I also tell you that since our conversation this morning, my "no's" have been changing to "yes"?
God is truly  good to me and his timing is perfect!!! Have a great Labor Day all!



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