I had a dream/Feminism

Last night I had a dream that I traveled to the past and warned myself to be careful because I was going to have a miscarriage.  I walked right up to myself and told her, "don't move any furniture and be careful because if you don't, you will lose the baby."  This is what I had done the Friday before my miscarriage, and while I can't be sure if this caused it, it might have.  At that time I didn't even know I was pregnant.  In my dream I was horrified at what I saw in myself, arrogance.  At that moment I was angry and desperate.  I pleaded with her that if she didn't listen, that baby was doomed. I didn't even remember that she didn't know yet that she was pregnant.  She finally relented, but I almost slapped myself when I saw that arrogant look on her face. Just for a moment, I thought of her as my most despised enemy.  I only was thinking of saving my baby, and she was thinking that I was trying to minimize her abilities. She didn't know I was trying to save her. 

    Arrogance is one of the ugliest things to me in the world, and it horrified me to see that in myself.  With ultra feminism in full swing in America, it is hard for any woman to receive that she should not do something.   Even if we can, there are things that we should not do without considering an alternative option for our safety and our futures.  I am a strong woman (physically and mentally). I have no problem lifting, pushing, or pulling.  I have always taken pride in the fact that I could do what a lot of people thought I couldn't.  The fact is women were made to be strong, but with a different purpose than a man.  Every time I think about all that manual labor I did while I didn't know that I was pregnant, I realize more clearly that I need a lifestyle change.  I am going to have to make more of a differentiation between what I can do and what I should do.  Paul says it like this:

1 Corinthians 10:23
23All things are lawful for me, but all things are not expedient: all things are lawful for me, but all things edify not.

For the sake of any possible future babies, I will not flex my muscles unnecessarily.  I will not ignore the help of a man because "I can do it myself".   I will not allow extreme feminism to take away my most precious gift, the one that God gave only to the woman.  I know now that taking my womanhood for granted in order to do what a man could do in the way that he could do it is foolish.  True feminism protects my right to be delicate, to be different from a man and just as capable.  I don't have to do everthing the way that a man does to be of equal value.  God has ways that he wants men and women to do things. This doesn't mean that we can't do some of the same things, but we must be wise and diserning what the will of the LORD is for us in respect to how he created us.

1 Corinthians 11:4-12
 4Every man praying or prophesying, having his head covered, dishonoureth his head. 5But every woman that prayeth or prophesieth with her head uncovered dishonoureth her head: for that is even all one as if she were shaven. 6For if the woman be not covered, let her also be shorn: but if it be a shame for a woman to be shorn or shaven, let her be covered. 7For a man indeed ought not to cover his head, forasmuch as he is the image and glory of God: but the woman is the glory of the man. 8For the man is not of the woman; but the woman of the man. 9Neither was the man created for the woman; but the woman for the man. 10For this cause ought the woman to have power on her head because of the angels. 11Nevertheless neither is the man without the woman, neither the woman without the man, in the Lord. 12For as the woman is of the man, even so is the man also by the woman; but all things of God.

    The head covering issue is not something that we argue today, but even as I cringe at how in my culture this would be considered oppressive, I am also encouraged because this text expresses that women were allowed to pray and prophesy publicly!  This text is honest about the difference and sameness of men and women, and I think that it is time that I do the same.  I am strong even if I ask my husband to move the dresser instead of flexing my muscles.  I have value whether I take out the trash or teach my son to do it.  I am powerful whether I open a single door for myself or not.  This is my feminism.  There are times when no help is around, and I fully believe that a woman should know how to do everything (and men too).  Let's just be careful to always take care of ourselves and take into account how God made us.  We are woman strong!